the tears just won't seem to leave her face. clutching the metal, she ponders on her vision. lately she thought about a lot of things but not until now had she come to this conclusion. everything around her just seemed to fall apart. everything she had or held on to in the end always seemed to disappear. even her only hope.

he had left her because she just would not leave her addiction. time after time he would tell he that if she didn't quit he would leave her and move on with his life. she never did it. he would always be there for her. he would find her drunk and drugged up in the street. he would help and love her because that was what she needed. nevertheless, she always went back to doing the same thing until he just could not stand it any longer.

he left her. gave her a kiss goodbye and left, leaving her there even yet more alone than she'd ever be.

she sits, wondering who will give her the strenght that albert did. tragically she has not an answer, only one that lingers in the back of he mind. she promises herself no more tears will be shed. clutching the metal, she thinks of albert. if only he would give her one more chance. the last tear rolls down her cheek. from a distance a few bids take off in flight from two disturbing noises. one of a gun being shot and the other of a telephone endlessly ringing. in her point of death she knew he had forgiven her, but like everything else given to her in life, it was just too late.

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