first and foremost i want to say i'm sorry. i'm sorry for acting
like an immature and selfish person. i should've known better. i should've learned from the mistakes i went through with my father, your son.

there's no sense in pointing fingers. you may not have been in my life fo whatever circumstances but that didn't mean i had to treat you with disrespect. i do want to say that i will forever be hurt due to the fact that you hardly ever paid us any attention. even if my father did embarrass you, it was not our fault. innocent children don't deserve tat neglect.

nonetheless i do forgive and i can forget. i'd rather carry those few memories i cherish. those few times you were around and the last time i saw you. maybe it was a little too late to get to know you, and so i will take this chance to make amends with my grandmother, your wife. and make amends with my aunts, your daughters.

maybe someday when the sun is on our side we can start all over again. as for now i will keep you in my thoughts and if it's in the stars i'll see you again.

your granddaughter.

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