when i was a child all i wanted was to breathe.
when i became a teenager all i wanted was to forget.
i walked for hours wanting to die,
i looked to pills for the way out.
when i was a child i wanted to dream
and as i drew older that's where i lived in,
floating among the stars,
i was the one next to the moon.
when the moon was away i became a teenager again and began to scream.
when i was a child i may have laughed a bit more, but the race to the heart were the tears.
and did i mention the years
of night filled with fears.
wake, in the middle of the night.
"no, i did not move at all"
open my eyes to the friendly pain.
when i was a child i used to act.
i was the dancer among the leaves in the trees
soon came fall and we created a blanket for you to walk over.
fall has never felt so great.
when i was a child i learned that crying was a sin, laughing was a gift, and living was a dream.
i would soon turn into a teenager who knew that living was a punishment, laughing was a joke and crying was an escape.
i became an adult. i learned to live. i covered the tears, i fake the laughter, and i learned to remember.
the scars, they never heal.
1:10 p.m. - 2003-04-01
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